To look for a new job or not to look for a new job....

So, lately I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I know I probably need to get a second job to catch up on everything.... but there's a couple of new things in my head that make me think I should ditch my current job (which I LOVE) and get a job during the day, so I can be home at night with the kids.  Part of me thinks this won't make much of a difference since I can't control the kids ALL the time anyway, and it's mainly my teenager that is the one that is making me rethink my hours with some of the things I suspect of him, but still...

There's a lingering feeling that maybe it's time to give up doing what I enjoy doing and bite the bullet and do something that has me working regular hours for a bit better pay (but will most assuredly be something I HATE doing, like office work).  I am really, REALLY torn on what to do here.  This is the first job I've had that I didn't want to call in sick all the time for, that I don't dread going in every night to, and that I have lasted for longer than a year at (working with Lee doesn't count).  If I could work in a non-customer filled area, and keep moving most of the time lifting and manually working during the daytime, I'd be perfectly happy working somewhere else.  It's hard to find a job though that fits the bill that I've created.  I guess I'm just not destined to be happy either way.

Hangin' with my BFF

Had a positively awesome time with my BFF of about 11 years and her family yesterday.  We hung out, played some pool volleyball, had some burgers and brews and just had FUN.  I have missed having FUN for so long now... Shelly and I used to hang out all the time, and we always had a good time.  Things got screwy for a while during my second marriage and she and I drifted apart (I won't go into all that) but we're back to the way things are supposed to be now and I couldn't be happier about it.  I'm especially thankful that Tom and Shelly get along very well and that I don't have to worry about being in the middle of the sour feelings that I was in the previous relationship. I missed her, I missed her family, and I missed being around them.  It was hard to go from seeing them all at least once a week for an afternoon, to going months without even talking.  I'm just glad the darker days are behind us and we're back to being "right" again.  :)

Another one of the small things that makes me happy....

....about Tom.  (Yeah yeah, but I can't help it!)  Some things just strike me as something to put here; things that put a smile on my face or make me think a bit, and this is one of them.

Tom gets up and helps me pick up around the house.  Yesterday, I decided it was time to do a sweep around the house, and while I was washing up some dishes in the kitchen, Tom walked around the house, picking up stuff and putting it away for me. If he was unsure of where something went or who it belongs to, he asks, but he got the majority of the assorted stuff that littered the floor and tables to where it all belongs.  I didn't ask him to, he didn't ask me if I needed help - he just did it.  I just don't understand why other people can't do that every once in a while.- just HELP instead of watching or asking the rhetorical question of whether or not I need help.  Of course I don't NEED help.  But sometimes, it's nice to have someone else step up and just jump in when they see me cleaning around the house.  Tom is good about pitching in without my having to ask him to, and I appreciate it more than he knows.  It's one of the many things that sets him apart from every other man I've ever encountered in my life and one of the reasons I fall deeper in love with him every single day.